Monday, May 31, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
It seemed to be a good idea at the time except now every time he does his #2 business in the potty he says "wets go to walmart, get me knew knew toy!"
In all honesty this potty training thing has been slow going but most importantly it has been moving along at little man's pace. I haven't pushed him with it and just let him move to the next step when he is ready. Let me just clarify that Rylee was a super quick potty trainer and it helped that she had an aggressive and on board babysitter when the time came for her. She started wearing panties one day and never looked back. In fact, I can't remember Rylee ever having more than two or three accidents. OK...back to Teg, one day we introduced undieroos (as he calls them) to him. Pull-ups were nothing more than a glorified diaper for him and I also found myself telling him while we were out of the house to just go in his pull-up b/c I didn't want to take time to take him to the potty(yes I know I just lost serious mommy points). He has had lots of undieroo accidents but he HATES to feel the wet on his bottom and legs so he quickly learned what was causing it and has done wonderful!!! He strictly wears undieroos during the day now.
Then there is the issue of sleeping. Well he still pees SO MUCH while he is sleeping that he actually saturates the diaper and wakes up wet all over most days. Needless to say, there is no way to put him down to sleep without a diaper on so I guess I will just keep waiting and suddenly it will happen right???
Next we have the poop segment. Yes folks, my son wouldn't have an accident in the undieroos but yet take the time to come beg me for a diaper and I would oblige. He would then run to the closest corner, poop and ask for a new diaper. It worked out great for us until I started having nightmares of him being 18 and us still going through this extremely awkward process. Teg is a clock work kid and I know exactly what time of day he does his business so I have just started putting him on the potty at that exact time and BAM...We have a pooper!!!!
Lastly there is his public restroom phobia. When we started this whole process he would use the public potty but then there was this one night at Red Lobster that involved me, Tegan, an automatic flushing toilet and pee going EVERYWHERE! So when he would scream at the mere suggestion of taking him in to the potty I had to take extreme measures. When we were out of the house and the urge hit, I would (and probably still will resort to this sometimes) open both passenger side doors, put him in between them, strip him from the waist down and let him pee. It works pretty darn good until you are sitting in a restaurant eating and he wants you to leave the table to take him outside to pee. So we started trying public potties again. I would talk him up about being a big boy and tell him it is going to be OK. Just like with the poop...suddenly he just let go of his fear and relieved himself!!! What a great moment. In fact he is so proud of himself for peeing in public potties that when we walk out of the restroom door he tells everyone we pass about how he just pee pee potty...and he doesn't use his inside voice to do this. It really is very cute b/c he has started building his own self up and says over and over "I a big boy, it gone be fine mama" and then he keeps his ears plugged with his fingers b/c he doesn't like to hear the toilets flush...even the ones that he is no where near.
Its a great feeling to almost be through with diapers. If I can just get him to sleep without peeing or at least put a catheter in at night, I will be golden!!
Monday, May 24, 2010
It's about to get much better as I am getting about a month break from school very soon! It is no secret that this class has been the hardest I have taken so far. Two more lecture days, two more lab days and a final exam ....this class will be far behind me!!! I can't wait to leave it in the dust! Hopefully I will have a few weeks to relax and enjoy some summer fun with my kids! Sucks that we had to cancel our vacation b/c of Paul's new job but who cares...HE IS AT HOME AT NIGHT!!!
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Recently I had children's church one Sunday so I had to miss the sermon. Paul had wrote on a piece of scrap paper and handed it to me after church and it reads "The key to our salvation is the ability to forgive others". I took that and stuck it on my bathroom mirror so I could see it daily. Then I asked Paul how I should go about doing that. He explained that forgiveness is in my heart. I don't have to forget but I have to find a way to stop holding on and just forgive. So I took his advice and here you go.....I love my mom so therefore I have to accept you. You were once someone I looked up to and someone I depended on but I can't feel that way anymore...at least not right now. What I can do is say that I don't wish you any harm. What you did hurt ALL of us but your willingness to walk away from everyone without so much as a phone call....that is where my anger has lied. But not anymore. I don't care and I won't hold on to it. I was bitter for to long after I lost my son and I refuse to be bitter anymore. You are not and probably never will be the same person to me that you once were but I can forgive you. I can let go and move on. I don't hate you. I want you to learn from your mistakes and prove that you are better than your track record leads us to believe. I want you to REALLY BE the person that you are when you are around your family. Life is short and I won't let this affect me any more because after all, this is MY LIFE so I forgive you.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
On a different note there was a moment where my arm had a small but very painful accident with a doorknob (of all things) that has resulted in me being positive that my arm is broken. Although my teacher (aka Dr. teacher) says he didn't think it is broke, I'm not convinced. It hurts...it really really hurts and my hand keeps getting puffy. But for three days we don't have insurance so I have just had to dealt with the pain while waiting for our new insurance to pick up!
OK...my Grey's Anatomy Seriously moment is over. Thanks for listening:)
Saturday, May 15, 2010
I guess you can say that the smacks in the back of the head have been "walk a mile in their shoes" moments. No one person does things like the other but yet we all judge b/c shouldn't everyone do things like I do? We find the bad and never even think there could be good or there could be tragedy in that person's life. I remember after I lost Cohen, I was ill all the time. Short fused would be a proper word. I was not cheerful or pleasant and wanted to slap those around me that could laugh and smile during a time like this...even those that didn't know me or have a clue of my situation. I just buried my infant son, HOW DARE THEY LAUGH!!! I truly believed I would never ever laugh or enjoy my life again but that was my path and thank you LORD that he had a different path laid ahead for me. I remember wanting to buy a tshirt saying "I just buried my infant son so please don't smile at me". Today I want a tshirt that says "I have a son waiting on me in Heaven with the Lord...what do you have to look forward to". This is not suppose to be about Cohen but sometimes it is just about Cohen. Anyways my point is this...STOP JUDGING, BLAMING, and NOT BELIEVING IN THE GOOD IN PEOPLE! Every time you see some kid dressed all crazy and you start to assume she must be poor b/c her parent's can't afford clothes that match...stop and think about how she must be creative and have an eye for color. The next time you go to judge b/c someone doesn't live in a house as nice as yours, stop to think about how much they pay for that house every month and how much more you pay for your super nice house. You just never know what is on the other side of a person or situation!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
I have always been over weight for as long as I can remember. I always thought that was the way I was just meant to be and I had to accept it, but now I know that is not the way it has to be. I went to Meadows surgical arts (in Commerce) on Nov. 19, 2009. I had decided I had, had enough. I was tired of being fat, tired of feeling bad all the time, I was miserable and I was the only one that could change it. This time was so different from any other time I have ever tried to lose weight. This time I think I found the secret to a successful weight loss. The 1st and most important thing was I had my head and my heart in the same place, I was ready and I meant that nothing was not going to stop me. So when I went to the Dr. they put me on an appetite suppressant called Adipex and an injection call Lipo B12. They told me to eat 1200 calories and walk or do some kind of exercise for 35 min. a day. I started walking or doing 30 min of step aerobics on the wii fit, counting my calories, I eat three 400 calorie meals a day and I do not eat anything after 7:00pm. I drink lots and lots of water all day long and only water, which was not really that hard because I only drank water to start with anyway. When I went back after a week to be weighed and get my Lipo B12 injection I had lost 7 lbs. I was so excited. I decided I thought I could do more when it come to my workouts, so I went to target and got 3 biggest loser DVD’s The Cardio Max, Power Sculpt and Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred and some small 2lb hand weights. I started out doing level 1 on each DVD, one in the morning and one at night. While still doing the step aerobics on the wii fit and walking up and down my driveway. Every 6 weeks I would add another level on the DVD’s. I was going to the doctor every Wed. to get weighed and get the B12 injection, the weight was just falling off. I could not believe I was really actually doing this. Then at the end of Dec. here comes the bump in the road. Something happened that was very devastating to me in my family life. I just knew this was going to be it for me because anyone who has ever had a weight problem knows when you are sad the only thing you want to do is eat. But I found something inside of me that was NOT going to let this happen, something I never knew I had…DETERMINATION. Where did this come from, how in all of my 32 years have I not ever seen this inside of me. But there it was and I was not turning it away. I stepped it up a notch and I started doing 50 min. of cardio, 45 min. of strength training, a hour of step aerobics everyday and at night in the dark I would go outside and walk up and down my driveway with it 20 degrees outside and would cry through every bit of it. I would come in with tears frozen on my face from the cold. But after a few weeks I got over that bump, which by the way never slowed down my weight loss. I breezed right on through Feb. and the first part of March with a good weight loss every week. Then it happened again, except this was not just a bump in the road, here come a mountain to climb. On Monday March 15, 2010 I got a phone call at 12:00 midnight saying that something had happened to Heather, my best friend of 20 years. I thought surely it was nothing to bad I had talked to her on the phone that evening for more than an hour and she was just fine. So I called Heather's sister to see what was going on. Heather had, had a brain aneurysm. I was so broken hearted I did not know what to do with myself. How could this happen, she is my age. The next day the doctor give her and her husband their options for surgery while still not making us any promises that she was even going to make it through this. Her daughter was staying with me and my husband; I am her daughter's everyday babysitter. I have been keeping her since she was 6 weeks old, 10 hours a day, 5 days a week and she will soon be 4 years old in a few weeks. On March 17th Heather had brain surgery to clamp off the aneurysm. She came through the surgery great. A few days after the surgery she had a mild stroke, but she was improving every day. She was in NICU for 2 1/2 weeks then moved down to the rehab floor and was there for another 2 weeks. During this whole time Heather was in the hospital I was still eating right and trying to exercise like I had been doing for months but it was very hard. Her daughter was staying with me 24 hours a day 7 days a week and I loved that she was there with me but to go from a baby sitter to around the clock care was not as easy as I thought it would be. The whole 5 weeks Heather was in the hospital I did not lose over 1 lb 6 oz a week and this had become very upsetting to me. The stress had taken over my body and would not allow it to move any further. After Heather had been home from the hospital for a week when I went and weighed I had lost 3 lbs and that is great for 1 week, I was very happy with that. The next week when I went to get weighed I had lost 10 lbs.OMG, 10 lbs from Wed. to Wed. and now that makes 83 lbs. I never in a million years ever could have dreamed that I could do this. This for me is not a diet; it has been a life style change. I never want to go back to the way I was before. I feel better than ever. I started out in a size 22 jeans and today I went into a dressing room and put on a size 10, buttoned them up and turned to look in the mirror and there stood a new person in front of me. All I could do was cry. This was the person I have always wanted to be. I know people say it is not what is on the outside it is what is on the inside, but when you live your whole life being overweight and then you see this new person that has always wanted to come out looking back at you it is such an emotional experience.
These are pictures of her with her husband that I took back around Thanksgiving this past year.
And here she is as of this past weekend! We are all very proud of you Meme (that's what all the kids call her)!
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Monday, May 10, 2010
But the presents were the best. Lots of homemade cards and pictures from Rylee. Then there was the necklace. I have been looking at necklaces like these online for months now so when I met a sweet lady at a kids bday party recently and found out that she made them...I had to have one! I gave her an idea of what I wanted and she worked her magic. It means soooo much to me to have this necklace with ALL three children on it. There are three small pearls hanging in the middle to represent each child. I love it love it love it! I don't think that I will ever get a gift that has as much meaning as this necklace does. I plan to wear it everyday and show it off every chance I get. Lannae is an amazing woman who knew how special this was going to be for me. She does so many different types of necklace and one day I want to get one of her family tree necklaces....I love those too. I actually couldn't decide between this one and that one. You can check her out on facebook by clicking HERE! Or check out her blog http://www.lannaejohnson.blogspot.com/
Now for the best Mother's Day gift EVER.... To have Cohen's name included on this means so much to me. Not many people mention him or even realize that my son was ever "real" b/c of his brief time in this world but I feel him with me everyday and now I can honor him right along with my other children.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Some people think they shouldn't have to do anything on Mother's day and they claim it "worship insert name here" day but unless your mother is dead....you don't get a true Mother's day! It's up to us as children (even though we are mother's) to step up and plan the perfect day for our moms. I definitely wouldn't trade my Mom for one day a year of "worship me day".
I love my mom dearly and think that she is a very strong, tough and totally stubborn woman. She raised five kids and did a great job with us. So tomorrow I will wake up, change a diaper, fix breakfast, get ready for church, celebrate my husband's mom and then celebrate my mom. No where in there do I plan to celebrate myself....I'll leave that part to my kids!!!
Thursday, May 6, 2010
She is sweet, sassy, smart and social but the thing to remember about her is that she is only SEVEN! She is a well rounded little lady and doesn't meet a stranger but don't worry, if you are a stranger it won't be that way for long. In fact, sometimes she will tell you things that will make her mommy a little red in the face. She has a lot of energy and this creative mind that totally reminds me of Me as a child....heck, it reminds me of Me now! She doesn't get nervous. She can stand up in front of any amount of people, sing a song and wonder what the big deal is about. She gets her feelings hurt easy but is the most resilient person I have ever met in my life. She may be upset about something one second but is just fine the next.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
1. French Fries! (enough said) Oh and maybe Little Debbie zebra cakes:)
2. If I ever die in my sleep, it isn't my husband's fault...even if it is! See, he sleep walks....A LOT! In fact I have made sure to remove any items near the bed that could be used as weapons to harm me:) So if he does it, he didn't mean to (at least I don't think so).
3. Stress! Since I stress about every little tiny thing possible (which I am working on doing better at), I'm pretty sure it will be the death of me.
4. Sometimes at night when I lay down my heart beats funny and I can't breath very good. Be sure to tell someone that if something happens to me:(
5. Lack of sleep!
6. If it is a wreck, it is surely caused by my kids fighting in the back seat and me trying to make them stop. But don't blame them...its just what kids do!
7. I may talk on my cell phone while driving but I am not one of those people that will freak out and look away from the road to find my phone in my purse when it rings. Just ask my husband, 3 out of 5 times I won't answer my phone.
8. HEADACHES! Some days I am pretty sure I have something strange (besides my brain) growing in my head. It hurts... A LOT! But I guess that could be added to the stress thing.
Reasons I will never die...
1. I do not drink, I do not do any form of drugs (unless you count a daily dose of three Tylenol a day, twice a day), I don't even smoke cigarettes...I think you see where I am going with this.
2. I don't text good when sitting on my living room couch so I definitely don't do it while driving.
3. A sickness that you get from everyday germs. I wash my hands way to much for that.
4. Driving crazy....I think my husband may disagree with this one.
5. Over exertion while cleaning my house....not gonna happen!
There you have it. I don't plan to die anytime soon but if I do, you can rule out all of the above!